I had an emotional break down around 1:30 am today. Basicly I have had a lot of bad things happen the last two weeks along with a lot of troubling things. I have been able to keep a good front for a while and managed not to break down and cry when I got the news that my grandmother has cancer again. I am usually a strong person when it comes to emotions, but there is one thing I have trouble with. Seeing and/or hearing another person cry. It makes me want to cry too.

Yesterday I got an urge to see one of my best friends. No later than 20 minutes after I came to see her she got a set of texts from her boyfriend. He was basicly telling her to come to his parents' house so he could break up with her infront of them. She was sobbing and I didn't know what to do. I knew her for the last three years, but only because we go to the same college and have similar interests. I don't actually know a whole lot about her.

Then I got part of her story. She had given up her family, her friends, everything for this guy. She was seriously in love with him from the bottom of her soul and this wasn't the first time he had pulled a stunt like this. They had broken up and gotten back together too many times. She was in such a horrible relationship and because she had to go see him at his parents' house I was left unable to see her through whatever thing he had to tell her. I have been worried about her all night since then and didn't hear anything from her either.

Then I started to become aware of my own bottled emotions and the pain of everything that I've gone through the last two weeks bubbled up and I was suddenly aware of how fragile things were. I don't think I should go into everything on here, but let's just say that I had more things to deal with in two weeks than anyone should have to go through in two months. I had the emotional strains of my entire family on me and my friends and then to add the sudden awareness of it all I tipped. I started crying and cried the entire time I was on the phone with my fiance on his way to work. By the time he got there and had to get off the phone at 2:00 am, I thought I was ok.

But I wasn't and after cleaning up I became painfully aware that I needed to talk to someone. No one was online at that time and my family was asleep so I did the only thing I could think of and went for my ipod. yeah I have an ipod, just a small one to listen to music on. But anyway then I got into the strangest mood and had the urge to draw Martin from summoned and his family. But since I didn't really understand how to draw troll noses I decided to get my art set out and work on a real art pad for a little bit. Then I got into it and started drawing. Before I knew it I had Martin's human mother. Then I tried making my nose sketches work and suddenly I had martin's father. Then my OCD kicked in and I started drawing compulsively until I had used eight pages of paper and ended up with Martin and Jeromey. I was able to calm down enough to scan everything and here I am now and I have litterally been up all night.... yeah